I've probably mentioned before that Denmark is not the cheapest country in the world , or in other words it's very expensive to live in. Go high standards :P It's so much that it would be cheaper for me and a few friends to do a shopping trip, for some stuff, to Germany and buy them from there. It's around 350 km-ish round trip and it's still going probably to be cheaper. For me tho it's mostly the road trip that i would enjoy more. Also it would help me check one more country in my list of countries i've visited. It would be way better if that list was been and explored , but for now it'd work. I'm prolly not the only one on this , but if i had the money i'd do a trip around the world , enduring all the flights and inconveniences , just for the experience to see the world. Also one year of traveling sounds AMAZING.
In other news, uni has been on it's way for some time now. Nothing really interesting to note there, just a lot of booooring classes that I don't like. Tho we do have Spanish and that's fun and it's actually fun to be the best in class. Also there we watched the Spanish movie by Guilermo Del Torro "Pan's labyrinth" , awarded with 3 oscars, and that it was quite the amazing movie. If you haven't seen it and you like a bit of fiction , then i highly recommend it! It has a very interesting dualistic nature to it - showing both a very real world during Franko Spain and at the same time a fictionous world , which is very different and impossible to explain without spoilers.
As for the rest of my world - well nothing really different or more exciting than before. Ok now i'll be off and do myself a favor and undo the mistake i'm guilty of - haven't watched "The Godfather" *gasp* i know i know :D Ok see you guys :)
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Student jobs
Since i've come back from my summer break i have been looking for a job. The only thing i've found for now is the one i mentioned in a previous blog posts. So naturally i'm getting a bit desperate for a bit of extra income, which would not be intended for me only. I don't think if i mentioned this before , but my father is a bit of a dick and he may give money to me and my bro , but my mom is left out cold. Since mid-global economic crisis her job is no more and i really want to help her out , but for now that's impossible. I've even been looking into sperm donor banks, which help to battle infertility(read use your stuff to make children around here,i'd guess) . I don't think i'll do anything like that , but it was a funny job add , which i couldn't help but click. :P
On an unrelated but kinda related topic i'm like super hyped to go to those student summer jobs in the USA. In economic terms , they are not that good , cuz you end up usually spending almost as much as you'd get. My reason for really wanting to do one is because of the experience itself. I have some friends who've done that and all are saying it was amazing and also i've been in the US and i can say i enjoyed it immensely. I know we Europeans tend to have a bad opinion on the US , but it's freaking awesome there. Also doing that i'd do one of the things I enjoy most in life and that is to travel. I've talked to mum about that and she's all like "Do it! It would be amazing!" and so on.
Also a great big thanks to Southern, Micky and Wellzy Boo for commenting on my last blog post, which was hard for me to write and getting your two cents is greatly appreciated.
Ok until next time. Thanks for dropping by!
On an unrelated but kinda related topic i'm like super hyped to go to those student summer jobs in the USA. In economic terms , they are not that good , cuz you end up usually spending almost as much as you'd get. My reason for really wanting to do one is because of the experience itself. I have some friends who've done that and all are saying it was amazing and also i've been in the US and i can say i enjoyed it immensely. I know we Europeans tend to have a bad opinion on the US , but it's freaking awesome there. Also doing that i'd do one of the things I enjoy most in life and that is to travel. I've talked to mum about that and she's all like "Do it! It would be amazing!" and so on.
Also a great big thanks to Southern, Micky and Wellzy Boo for commenting on my last blog post, which was hard for me to write and getting your two cents is greatly appreciated.
Ok until next time. Thanks for dropping by!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Life changing
Hello guys !
This thought has been bugging me for maybe a few months now and i have told only a very unselect few and by that i mean i've told only a few people i mostly don't know much. This is because i find it easier sometimes to share things i see as big in my life,even tho they probably aren't as important as i might think. So you'd be one of the first, who matter in someway, what has been dwelling in my head for a while now.
I have a growing displeasure for the programme i chose in uni and what i'm studying at the moment. Don't get me wrong it's very prospective and so on , which is the reason i tried to push on. But the thing is that i'm not cut out for all that BS and i don't think that there's any point in trying to push on for something i don't like at all and with which i'd be unhappy with in the end. It's a bummer that this would end up costing me 2 years of my life, cuz i didn't change after the first year. Now when i see what i'd actually have to do i'm more confident than ever that this is not for me. Also the lecturer in our main subject is mediocre at best so that's another thing against all this.
This brings out another question, if i change what am i going to change to. Well that's a good one and i have no real answer to it right now. I have a few ideas here and there, but nothing solid at all in the moment. The problem also is that i'm unsure if i want to stay in the same uni at all cuz of the small town and not top notch uni. This gives me either the option to go to a bigger uni/city in a place kinda near by and still live where i live atm , so there wouldn't be that major of a life change. Tho i've also had an idea in my head to maybe go to the UK and all but that's way far fetched and i need to make a serious amount of cash to do such a change,me thinks. But who knows.
So if there's still people reading this , I'd be quite grateful for some wise words or something. For that thanks in advance :P
Ok see you guys :)
This thought has been bugging me for maybe a few months now and i have told only a very unselect few and by that i mean i've told only a few people i mostly don't know much. This is because i find it easier sometimes to share things i see as big in my life,even tho they probably aren't as important as i might think. So you'd be one of the first, who matter in someway, what has been dwelling in my head for a while now.
I have a growing displeasure for the programme i chose in uni and what i'm studying at the moment. Don't get me wrong it's very prospective and so on , which is the reason i tried to push on. But the thing is that i'm not cut out for all that BS and i don't think that there's any point in trying to push on for something i don't like at all and with which i'd be unhappy with in the end. It's a bummer that this would end up costing me 2 years of my life, cuz i didn't change after the first year. Now when i see what i'd actually have to do i'm more confident than ever that this is not for me. Also the lecturer in our main subject is mediocre at best so that's another thing against all this.
This brings out another question, if i change what am i going to change to. Well that's a good one and i have no real answer to it right now. I have a few ideas here and there, but nothing solid at all in the moment. The problem also is that i'm unsure if i want to stay in the same uni at all cuz of the small town and not top notch uni. This gives me either the option to go to a bigger uni/city in a place kinda near by and still live where i live atm , so there wouldn't be that major of a life change. Tho i've also had an idea in my head to maybe go to the UK and all but that's way far fetched and i need to make a serious amount of cash to do such a change,me thinks. But who knows.
So if there's still people reading this , I'd be quite grateful for some wise words or something. For that thanks in advance :P
Ok see you guys :)
Thursday, September 2, 2010
"... like a crazy paparazzi dude ... "
Hey there dear readers !!! ... Wait , what - there isn't anyone left. That's kinda bad i'd guess. To be honest i really just forgot about posting on here and yeah . Opppsie :( I hope you're not going to all hate me for doing that.
Since the 21st ,when apparently i last posted, there have been just a few things that are actually blog worthy. Interesting enough is that all of them actually happened during this week.
- the first and most important one is that i actually got to meet one online friend with which i have talked for more than an year and a half. I could say that it was quite awesome to actually meet him and show him around here. The best part was that he's also gay and we could perv on the good looking blondies on the streets. I was kinda nervous about the whole meeting thing but it turned out to be really good. It was really sweet of him to make this detour before he went back home across the world. Ou and as i've mentioned here i really love photography and he has my dream camera a Canon 7D and when with him i was like a crazy paparazzi dude :P aka his camera was mainly in me and i was taking photos as crazy.
- second would be that i started uni again and I see that as something objectivly good but i'm so used to my lazy ways from the summer that it's just hard to have to do stuff yet again :(. So it's a bummer but meh , somebody has to do it *rolls eyes*
- I don't know if i mentioned this before here. I had one roommate that i couldn't stand at all and he was stupid and annoying , but to my immense pleasure he had to move so that makes me quite content with how things turned out.
In an unrelated note - I saw my stat thingy and apparently for a blog that hasn't been updated for awhile in some days i get high-ish traffic and that's mostly from porn blogs. I don't know what's that all about. I wen't into one or two and they weren't linking to me , so that's kinda weird.
This is all from me for now. I'd try to update you all more often, but when nothing that interesting happens it's a bit pointless isn't it.
Bye guys :)
Since the 21st ,when apparently i last posted, there have been just a few things that are actually blog worthy. Interesting enough is that all of them actually happened during this week.
- the first and most important one is that i actually got to meet one online friend with which i have talked for more than an year and a half. I could say that it was quite awesome to actually meet him and show him around here. The best part was that he's also gay and we could perv on the good looking blondies on the streets. I was kinda nervous about the whole meeting thing but it turned out to be really good. It was really sweet of him to make this detour before he went back home across the world. Ou and as i've mentioned here i really love photography and he has my dream camera a Canon 7D and when with him i was like a crazy paparazzi dude :P aka his camera was mainly in me and i was taking photos as crazy.
- second would be that i started uni again and I see that as something objectivly good but i'm so used to my lazy ways from the summer that it's just hard to have to do stuff yet again :(. So it's a bummer but meh , somebody has to do it *rolls eyes*
- I don't know if i mentioned this before here. I had one roommate that i couldn't stand at all and he was stupid and annoying , but to my immense pleasure he had to move so that makes me quite content with how things turned out.
In an unrelated note - I saw my stat thingy and apparently for a blog that hasn't been updated for awhile in some days i get high-ish traffic and that's mostly from porn blogs. I don't know what's that all about. I wen't into one or two and they weren't linking to me , so that's kinda weird.
This is all from me for now. I'd try to update you all more often, but when nothing that interesting happens it's a bit pointless isn't it.
Bye guys :)
Saturday, August 21, 2010
First day of work
Just a quick update here cuz i cannot think of a proper length post.
I should feel lucky enough that my first working day of my life has been put of until when i'm 20 years old. I wouldn't say that it is because i'm lazy, which i am, but the income i've got from my father if not enough it has been sufficient for an acceptably livable life.
My first day of work was basically what i expected + a lot more rain. My workplace was "cleaning after" a major concert of a world famous band. This involved lots of heavy lifting (and muscle fatigue for 2 days), then some more lifting to help a forklift to get out of one stupid situation it got itself into , then lots and lots of cleaning after the inconsiderate and littering Danes from the night before. This was all performed under very heavy rain and resulted in my feet swimming in water. Was worth it tho , for little more than 15 euros/hour. Go very high standards in Denmark!! Tho there was only work for 4 hours :(
This is all for today. Have fun and be happy :)
I should feel lucky enough that my first working day of my life has been put of until when i'm 20 years old. I wouldn't say that it is because i'm lazy, which i am, but the income i've got from my father if not enough it has been sufficient for an acceptably livable life.
My first day of work was basically what i expected + a lot more rain. My workplace was "cleaning after" a major concert of a world famous band. This involved lots of heavy lifting (and muscle fatigue for 2 days), then some more lifting to help a forklift to get out of one stupid situation it got itself into , then lots and lots of cleaning after the inconsiderate and littering Danes from the night before. This was all performed under very heavy rain and resulted in my feet swimming in water. Was worth it tho , for little more than 15 euros/hour. Go very high standards in Denmark!! Tho there was only work for 4 hours :(
This is all for today. Have fun and be happy :)
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Greatest party of awesomeness ever !!!
Hello guys(and gals) !
Best party experience EVER!!! I'm quite sure i posted in an older post that i'm going to be at one party/concert/awesomeness where one of the best DJ's in the world would play. I had relatively high hopes for that- forst because he's my favorite DJ ever and because last summer i was at a similar one , with an equally famous DJ and it was quite good. Was I in for a surprise tho!!!
This party defines the word -EPIC- and not in the now mainstream way. It's was without a doubt an amazing show with the greatest laser and light effects and the greatest atmosphere one could ever hope for. No wonder that DJ's is so highly sought after and had millions and millions of fans around the world. With 10-12 000 people it wasn't the biggest thing ever, but so much people that are mesmerized so well make for an utterly electrifying place to be. The DJ himself said that the party was way above average and you could see that he was also enjoying himself. I'll defo go to another one of his gigs , if possible. In short it was great, the music amazing, lighting effects wonderful and all that put into an epic epicness thing!!!
Also i'm again in Denmark now and it's raining a lot and around 12-15 colder than where i was. :( On an upside tho thanks to me being a very good person and helping an old guy thru 2 airports i was awarded by his daughter , free train ticket in first class to my town. If you do good , good comes back at you. :)
Hope you're having an amazing time!
Bye
Best party experience EVER!!! I'm quite sure i posted in an older post that i'm going to be at one party/concert/awesomeness where one of the best DJ's in the world would play. I had relatively high hopes for that- forst because he's my favorite DJ ever and because last summer i was at a similar one , with an equally famous DJ and it was quite good. Was I in for a surprise tho!!!
This party defines the word -EPIC- and not in the now mainstream way. It's was without a doubt an amazing show with the greatest laser and light effects and the greatest atmosphere one could ever hope for. No wonder that DJ's is so highly sought after and had millions and millions of fans around the world. With 10-12 000 people it wasn't the biggest thing ever, but so much people that are mesmerized so well make for an utterly electrifying place to be. The DJ himself said that the party was way above average and you could see that he was also enjoying himself. I'll defo go to another one of his gigs , if possible. In short it was great, the music amazing, lighting effects wonderful and all that put into an epic epicness thing!!!
Also i'm again in Denmark now and it's raining a lot and around 12-15 colder than where i was. :( On an upside tho thanks to me being a very good person and helping an old guy thru 2 airports i was awarded by his daughter , free train ticket in first class to my town. If you do good , good comes back at you. :)
Hope you're having an amazing time!
Bye
Thursday, August 12, 2010
It's good to be a man
.... in Turkey.
It's really amazing how people from different countries can have such different views of the world and different way of thinking than what i'm used to. When i went to Denmark i cannot say that there was a very big culture shock and people were not the same but mostly similar. In Turkey however people see the world in such a different way , so it was a very good opportunity to see how a Muslim country makes out of the world.
First of all Turkey was quite amazing! The country itself is quite interesting and the cities(not Istanbul) had a very vintage look-like you're back 30 or 40 years. People are extremely polite which i didn't really expect, to such a point that they can get far out of their way just to help you. Men are mostly smartly dressed with shirts and trousers, but at least for my taste they were not at all appealing. Some women however were actually following the muslim ideas and were mostly covered. It was really weird to see women in 35+ degrees with trousers, sweaters, with their traditional headcloths and on top of that a raincoat. Those women weren't that much but still was crazy.
The most interesting part is the position of a man in society. For example we were in a kebab place and it was me( a guy) and 3 women,at the time, and the guy was calling me "the chief or "the boss" and whenever he asked about something he was addressing me and waiting for me to answer ,listening to me. He wasn't disrespecting women at all,he was quite polite even, but in their culture the man is,as the guy said, the boss and he's looked as the head of the family with no questions asked. I actually liked that , it was a weird ego boost type of thing.
Istanbul on the other hand is very modern and a giant piece of city. 5th largest in population terms according to wikipedia- 12.8 million people. It's incredibly beautiful and just a proper treat to see. A must see in my opinion. Also was in the Asian part of the city so i can say now that i have been in Asia aswell. Went over the Bosphorus which was smaller than what i expected, but still amazingly breathtaking. A thing that i saw was the large amount of mosques there, at one point when we were going on the freeway i started counting them and for 5 km there were at least 15 , but i stopped counting cuz it was close to impossible to count the hundreds of mosques out there.
Overall it was an amazing holiday and would defo go another time if the opportunity arises. I had a blast tho very soon i'll have to go back again to depressing Denmark. :(
I hope you're all good and have a great day/night/week :)
It's really amazing how people from different countries can have such different views of the world and different way of thinking than what i'm used to. When i went to Denmark i cannot say that there was a very big culture shock and people were not the same but mostly similar. In Turkey however people see the world in such a different way , so it was a very good opportunity to see how a Muslim country makes out of the world.
First of all Turkey was quite amazing! The country itself is quite interesting and the cities(not Istanbul) had a very vintage look-like you're back 30 or 40 years. People are extremely polite which i didn't really expect, to such a point that they can get far out of their way just to help you. Men are mostly smartly dressed with shirts and trousers, but at least for my taste they were not at all appealing. Some women however were actually following the muslim ideas and were mostly covered. It was really weird to see women in 35+ degrees with trousers, sweaters, with their traditional headcloths and on top of that a raincoat. Those women weren't that much but still was crazy.
The most interesting part is the position of a man in society. For example we were in a kebab place and it was me( a guy) and 3 women,at the time, and the guy was calling me "the chief or "the boss" and whenever he asked about something he was addressing me and waiting for me to answer ,listening to me. He wasn't disrespecting women at all,he was quite polite even, but in their culture the man is,as the guy said, the boss and he's looked as the head of the family with no questions asked. I actually liked that , it was a weird ego boost type of thing.
Istanbul on the other hand is very modern and a giant piece of city. 5th largest in population terms according to wikipedia- 12.8 million people. It's incredibly beautiful and just a proper treat to see. A must see in my opinion. Also was in the Asian part of the city so i can say now that i have been in Asia aswell. Went over the Bosphorus which was smaller than what i expected, but still amazingly breathtaking. A thing that i saw was the large amount of mosques there, at one point when we were going on the freeway i started counting them and for 5 km there were at least 15 , but i stopped counting cuz it was close to impossible to count the hundreds of mosques out there.
Overall it was an amazing holiday and would defo go another time if the opportunity arises. I had a blast tho very soon i'll have to go back again to depressing Denmark. :(
I hope you're all good and have a great day/night/week :)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
High life and Playboy
Hello there blog readers,
My days have been quite fine since the last time i blogged. There hasn't been anything major or mega interesting , but just small things that make life a bit more interesting. Like a few days ago I was at a disco with my best friend and we had a grand all time. More interesting was that i met with the owner of the national airlines company, who actually had my best friends phone number, but i didn't go deeper into how on Earth she knew him(i've learnt not to ask about some of her iffy acquaintances :P ) . From what you can learn from a person at a disco ,I thought he was a genuinely nice guy and very down to earth. Of course he had 2 bodyguards, but that is expected from someone with so much money. Ouu and his female friend was a Playmate from Playboy 2009, so now i can say that i know a so called "bunny" :P Honestly tho she was dumb as a brick and excluding her face she was quite beautiful. So can i say that i was part of the elite for a few hours?
In the next week or so, the plans are not entirely sure, I'm going to visit Istanbul(both Asian and European part). From people i have heard that it's one of the most beautiful cities in the world. Also it would be the first time i'll be in Asia so that makes me quite excited. It's also always nice to visit a new country, a new continent and new religion.
Hope you're all doing good.
Bye
My days have been quite fine since the last time i blogged. There hasn't been anything major or mega interesting , but just small things that make life a bit more interesting. Like a few days ago I was at a disco with my best friend and we had a grand all time. More interesting was that i met with the owner of the national airlines company, who actually had my best friends phone number, but i didn't go deeper into how on Earth she knew him(i've learnt not to ask about some of her iffy acquaintances :P ) . From what you can learn from a person at a disco ,I thought he was a genuinely nice guy and very down to earth. Of course he had 2 bodyguards, but that is expected from someone with so much money. Ouu and his female friend was a Playmate from Playboy 2009, so now i can say that i know a so called "bunny" :P Honestly tho she was dumb as a brick and excluding her face she was quite beautiful. So can i say that i was part of the elite for a few hours?
In the next week or so, the plans are not entirely sure, I'm going to visit Istanbul(both Asian and European part). From people i have heard that it's one of the most beautiful cities in the world. Also it would be the first time i'll be in Asia so that makes me quite excited. It's also always nice to visit a new country, a new continent and new religion.
Hope you're all doing good.
Bye
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Small break
Don't get me wrong here i like blogging , because that fills out some need for self expression of a part of me that usually doesn't get mentioned in your regular conversation. This is both awesome and in a way releaving to share things with someone.
Now with the whole crush scenario i think i need a real break from blogging, because this place kind of reminds me of the whole ridiculous situation. It was ridiculous, because after sometime of daily talking online and a bad day on my part everything ended abruptly with " You'll have to suffer the consequences of your actions" and " I have to go now. Bye". I still had some hope that we could talk again , but now i see that he has unfollowed and deleted my blog from his.
So i'll take a breather until i need it.
Before that i want to plug one blogger. He's been around since May and he's a future lawyer. At the same time he's quite fun to read and really horny all the time. I'll like if you go and say hi to him and show him some love. Asch92
Ps. People in real life also have bad days and can also be downers and in the future when you have a bf or a friend next to you and he/she feels bad are you also going to tell him the next day that he/she has to suffer the consequences? (yeah that was directly aimed at you not my readers)
Now with the whole crush scenario i think i need a real break from blogging, because this place kind of reminds me of the whole ridiculous situation. It was ridiculous, because after sometime of daily talking online and a bad day on my part everything ended abruptly with " You'll have to suffer the consequences of your actions" and " I have to go now. Bye". I still had some hope that we could talk again , but now i see that he has unfollowed and deleted my blog from his.
So i'll take a breather until i need it.
Before that i want to plug one blogger. He's been around since May and he's a future lawyer. At the same time he's quite fun to read and really horny all the time. I'll like if you go and say hi to him and show him some love. Asch92
Ps. People in real life also have bad days and can also be downers and in the future when you have a bf or a friend next to you and he/she feels bad are you also going to tell him the next day that he/she has to suffer the consequences? (yeah that was directly aimed at you not my readers)
Monday, July 19, 2010
Ewan McGregor + " The Ghost writer"
Usually I'm not attracted to guys who are way older than i am and especially ones that could be my father, like Ewan McGregor. I wouldn't say that i am sexually attracted to him, or in other words to shag me in his trailer on a movie set, but really like him as a person or some might say his on screen persona. He's like the perfect brit- witty, british accent, good looking and an awesome actor. Unfortunately he's married , but from the movies i have seen with him he has a very strong gay aura around him and if there is such a thing as gaydar mine is beeping quite hard. Maybe i was fooled by his play in the movie "I love you Philip Morris" where he plays a gay guy(he must be a very good actor to leave such a lasting impression)
His latest movies "The ghost writer" is AWESOME!!! It's directed by Roman Polanski and is a political thriller about the ex British prime minister and his memoirs. Ewan McGregor is the so called ghost writer and he gets himself into a big mess. Not to spoil it for anyone I'll just say that the movie has an interesting plot and a very unexpected end and just when you think you've seen the real end there's an even more unexpected end at the very end. (Wow lot's of "end"s in that sentence). If you're into that kind of stuff , you won't be disappointed by the movie. Only big problem i had with the movie was the obvious product placement, even implemented in the plot itself. All movie long i thought that Ewan McGregor was gay btw, before i wrote this post i found out he's actually married and so on.
All in all go Brits , love your accent, love your actors, love "Top Gear". You have some very attractive people and AWESOME accent (except Birmingham or Bolton, i don't remember, which have a very difficult accent to understand)
Have fun and be awesome!
His latest movies "The ghost writer" is AWESOME!!! It's directed by Roman Polanski and is a political thriller about the ex British prime minister and his memoirs. Ewan McGregor is the so called ghost writer and he gets himself into a big mess. Not to spoil it for anyone I'll just say that the movie has an interesting plot and a very unexpected end and just when you think you've seen the real end there's an even more unexpected end at the very end. (Wow lot's of "end"s in that sentence). If you're into that kind of stuff , you won't be disappointed by the movie. Only big problem i had with the movie was the obvious product placement, even implemented in the plot itself. All movie long i thought that Ewan McGregor was gay btw, before i wrote this post i found out he's actually married and so on.
All in all go Brits , love your accent, love your actors, love "Top Gear". You have some very attractive people and AWESOME accent (except Birmingham or Bolton, i don't remember, which have a very difficult accent to understand)
Have fun and be awesome!
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Technical difficulties. *Updated
*This post was updated with a few more things added. Also i fixed some mistakes in my writing, i guess i should proof read my posts before i post them*
Sorry for my melodramatic post from yesterday. That's all well and truly gone. It's quite awesome that i had a precognition or something of the sorts and backed up the blog that same morning, before all went down. This means that everything is where it is supposed to be, except for the post that triggered all this and the melodramatic post.
The reason for me deleting the blog,and all, was the whole crush thing. I guess I totally jinxed that one, didn't I? In short after the several day high of my 1st crush post and the good reception of the whole thing by the "crush", things kind of went down hill. Yesterday i was a bit down and he said we need to talk and he said that he wanted things to be just as they were and nothing to change. Even tho that was working for me before , I got extremely upset about that and blew things out of proportions( mind you i never said anything bad to him i just had severely deteriorated communication skills[aka didn't talk much]) After we stopped talking i deleted my blog in a burst of upsetness , even tho looking from now that didn't make much sense. Same night we talked and i was going the "it's all my fault" way and it ended with him saying i must figure out myself and me going to sleep before 10pm. Today we talked again and i get the whole Freudian talk that my actions from yesterday reveal things about me (that apparently he doesn't want to have anything in common with-that's how i saw it) and that i have to suffer the consequences of my actions. I don't like that but if he feels like that and wants no contact with me , than that's what i'll do. So i deleted his MSN from my Yahoo(that could sound so pervy if in the right mindset) so i don't get tempted into bothering him.
After this little episode i'll continue my posting when i have something to say. I hope you don't think i'm crazy and see that everything was all due to normal emotions. We're all human and as i like to say "Shit happens".
On an unrelated note i changed my layout (yet again) i'd appreciate some feedback if you like it or not. *edit* hmm apparently the background doesn't appear every time, odd. It would be cool if you guys get the symbolic meaning of the space man in the new header.
Hope you're doing ok and have fun guys(and also gals if there are any reading the blog)
Sorry for my melodramatic post from yesterday. That's all well and truly gone. It's quite awesome that i had a precognition or something of the sorts and backed up the blog that same morning, before all went down. This means that everything is where it is supposed to be, except for the post that triggered all this and the melodramatic post.
The reason for me deleting the blog,and all, was the whole crush thing. I guess I totally jinxed that one, didn't I? In short after the several day high of my 1st crush post and the good reception of the whole thing by the "crush", things kind of went down hill. Yesterday i was a bit down and he said we need to talk and he said that he wanted things to be just as they were and nothing to change. Even tho that was working for me before , I got extremely upset about that and blew things out of proportions( mind you i never said anything bad to him i just had severely deteriorated communication skills[aka didn't talk much]) After we stopped talking i deleted my blog in a burst of upsetness , even tho looking from now that didn't make much sense. Same night we talked and i was going the "it's all my fault" way and it ended with him saying i must figure out myself and me going to sleep before 10pm. Today we talked again and i get the whole Freudian talk that my actions from yesterday reveal things about me (that apparently he doesn't want to have anything in common with-that's how i saw it) and that i have to suffer the consequences of my actions. I don't like that but if he feels like that and wants no contact with me , than that's what i'll do. So i deleted his MSN from my Yahoo(that could sound so pervy if in the right mindset) so i don't get tempted into bothering him.
After this little episode i'll continue my posting when i have something to say. I hope you don't think i'm crazy and see that everything was all due to normal emotions. We're all human and as i like to say "Shit happens".
On an unrelated note i changed my layout (yet again) i'd appreciate some feedback if you like it or not. *edit* hmm apparently the background doesn't appear every time, odd. It would be cool if you guys get the symbolic meaning of the space man in the new header.
Hope you're doing ok and have fun guys(and also gals if there are any reading the blog)
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Almost coming out
As you might know the only people who actually know about my sexuality are you my readers. Or in other words I haven't really had any desire to tell anyone, either because i thought it was pointless or just didn't want to share this with anyone in real life.
This almost changed in the same day as the one my last post talks about. Earlier that day me and a group of friends went to the beach in a place they just opened so we decided to check it out. After that me , two girls and 2 guys decided that we didn't feel much like going home so I said why not go to that resort. Since my car is quite nice(for someone my age) the girls said dibs to being in my car and the 2 guys went into the other guys car. So long story short 6 people went with 2 cars. One of the guys i've mentioned to the 2 girls that i have a super strong feeling that he is gay and one of the girls* said she thought the same. * That girl is probably the only one that i could have complete faith in telling her that part of me , because i know she's that awesome and i've told her some stuff about me no one ever knew before and she has been reliable.
So we go to the resort and we all just walk around for a few hours and i have some sneak peeks at some of the very good looking foreign guys there. I stay there thinking how awesome it could be to actually tell the above mentioned girl about how i feel and have a sort of coming out or just telling someone irl. So we get back in the city and after some time we decide to go home and i drive the 2 girls home. At the end i was left with the same girl alone in my car driving her to her place. My mind was shouting for me to just tell her and get it off my chest. On a stop light i even said "i gotta tell you something" and when she said "what?" i chickened out and made a funny comment that let my statement slip. I was also thinking how immensely awkward that convo would be so i said nothing. Next time i get alone time with her i have no idea what could happen.
Just to add a little flair to this post i'd add this photo that screams complete awesomeness
Click to enlarge. Source
This is it for today. Have fun and have a great day!!
Ps. I wonder how i almost came out when i was so against the idea just a month ago
This almost changed in the same day as the one my last post talks about. Earlier that day me and a group of friends went to the beach in a place they just opened so we decided to check it out. After that me , two girls and 2 guys decided that we didn't feel much like going home so I said why not go to that resort. Since my car is quite nice(for someone my age) the girls said dibs to being in my car and the 2 guys went into the other guys car. So long story short 6 people went with 2 cars. One of the guys i've mentioned to the 2 girls that i have a super strong feeling that he is gay and one of the girls* said she thought the same. * That girl is probably the only one that i could have complete faith in telling her that part of me , because i know she's that awesome and i've told her some stuff about me no one ever knew before and she has been reliable.
So we go to the resort and we all just walk around for a few hours and i have some sneak peeks at some of the very good looking foreign guys there. I stay there thinking how awesome it could be to actually tell the above mentioned girl about how i feel and have a sort of coming out or just telling someone irl. So we get back in the city and after some time we decide to go home and i drive the 2 girls home. At the end i was left with the same girl alone in my car driving her to her place. My mind was shouting for me to just tell her and get it off my chest. On a stop light i even said "i gotta tell you something" and when she said "what?" i chickened out and made a funny comment that let my statement slip. I was also thinking how immensely awkward that convo would be so i said nothing. Next time i get alone time with her i have no idea what could happen.
Just to add a little flair to this post i'd add this photo that screams complete awesomeness
This is it for today. Have fun and have a great day!!
Ps. I wonder how i almost came out when i was so against the idea just a month ago
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Can't get away from them ?!?!
Yesterday was a pretty rainy, thunderstormy day YAY !
The uncooperative weather didn't stop me and some friends to go to one of the major beach resorts in my country. It's close enough so we went there for a walk and to see how the tourism is this year. Apparently the people there have changed a lot and one giant chunk of the people there were.... *undramatic music* ... you guessed it Danes. It was really fun to see so much here and for the first time to be on the other side of the language barrier. Most people there were my age and i can say that there were some very hot ones !!
The title shouldn't imply that i don't like em or anything , but that even when i'm home and way away from Denmark i cannot not hear the Danish language :P A curious thing was that here they were way more party oriented and crazy then in their home country(well who isn't on a holiday). If i have any Danish readers i'd be very curious to know what was that dance in one restaurant where all people (all Danes) went on the tables and were dancing to a house/dance type music which from what i understood was telling the days from Sunday to friday. ( i would guess the text was saying what they should do , but my Danish is very basic so i didn't understand almost anything).
Also today i reached 2000 page views so if you want something special just say in the comments, if like always nothing pops up i'd continue with my routine, i guess. By special i mean a dedicated post to something or most of the stuff that have been done in the other blogs.
The uncooperative weather didn't stop me and some friends to go to one of the major beach resorts in my country. It's close enough so we went there for a walk and to see how the tourism is this year. Apparently the people there have changed a lot and one giant chunk of the people there were.... *undramatic music* ... you guessed it Danes. It was really fun to see so much here and for the first time to be on the other side of the language barrier. Most people there were my age and i can say that there were some very hot ones !!
The title shouldn't imply that i don't like em or anything , but that even when i'm home and way away from Denmark i cannot not hear the Danish language :P A curious thing was that here they were way more party oriented and crazy then in their home country(well who isn't on a holiday). If i have any Danish readers i'd be very curious to know what was that dance in one restaurant where all people (all Danes) went on the tables and were dancing to a house/dance type music which from what i understood was telling the days from Sunday to friday. ( i would guess the text was saying what they should do , but my Danish is very basic so i didn't understand almost anything).
Also today i reached 2000 page views so if you want something special just say in the comments, if like always nothing pops up i'd continue with my routine, i guess. By special i mean a dedicated post to something or most of the stuff that have been done in the other blogs.
Oh no... a crush
This ain't good! As the title says i've developed a crush on someone. He's soo amazing and so smart at the same time. I think i can talk with him for hours on end for everything imaginable and i dare say we have quite a bit in common. I often find how he sees some stuff in life very refreshing and cute. If there was No such thing as time i think we could always find something interesting to chat about. BUT unfortunately i don't get to talk to him nearly as much as i could hope for and that's sad, because he often finds other stuff to do. Tho that can be a good thing, because when he comes online it always puts a smile on my face and most of the crap in life goes way back into my mind. (I know what you'd say having an online crush is pathetic, sad, stupid , pointless, bad, wrong or whatever , but my mind has been won apparently). Tho i'd probably not do anything about that because i value him as a friend and i wouldn't want to loose that! It would be bad if he sees my crush as a bad thing and not a BIG compliment to his personality and him as a person. Life is a cruel mistress :(
Have fun guys and see you next time.
Ps. Wow 2 post in less than 24 hours :O
Have fun guys and see you next time.
Ps. Wow 2 post in less than 24 hours :O
Monday, July 12, 2010
Cool and weird dream
Last night after the really disappointing end to the World Cup i wasn't really feeling like sleeping, so i stated later then i usually do. During that time i chatted with mister Spastic Fantastic about the most random of topics which was: "how weird one should be to be a bear wrestler?". So that was fun but the more interesting followed in the dreams i had.
One dream in particular stood out from the rest and was vivid and cool enough for me to remember it very well even hours after i woke up. The dream in itself starts with me being in a small restaurant thingy , sitting in a booth and next to me sits the most amazing boy one could ever imagine ,like he came out directly from my head :P , but he was actually one i have seen around the web before. As one might realize by now we were on a date and everything was so amazingly vivid that i couldn't be more sure that we were actually there. It was so awesome to hug and go all lovey-dovey on him (there was actually no kissing or naughty touching) and it felt so refreshingly AMAZING!!! Also he had the most amazing white shirt one could ever had!!! .
Then things started to go all weird and i saw one guy from uni sitting with some Japanese guys and him looking quite worried. He was looking over his shoulder and being all nervous. I tell my date that i know him and i acknowledge the guy by saying hi from a distance. Then the guy goes somewhere and after some minutes the Japanese guys come to me (they were wearing suits and dark glasses *suspicious* ) and want to fight me because i apparently overheard something i shouldn't have. And all i was doing was cuddling into my date :P So i just stand up and say ok we fight then, and things get all slow-mo on me and i'm crazy fast like a ninja and get 2 people down and i wake up.
I so wish the lovey-dovey stuff had continued and i never woke up :(
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On a totally unrelated note i'm wondering how this blog became from a daily thing to a twice a week kind of thing. I do apologize to someone who might actually miss my regular postings. I don't know why it's like that now , it's not like i'm super mega busy or anything. Oops sorry was think out loud/in writing.
As for me i'm basically driving north and south in a perimeter of 100 km for the last few days just to change the scenery. That's fun , but nothing that major really to blog about , just hanging around and keeping myself busy i guess. At nights i'm either chatting with one of the two people i met on blogger , or i can be outside bumming around :P
That's it i hope you all have a great time.
See ya.
One dream in particular stood out from the rest and was vivid and cool enough for me to remember it very well even hours after i woke up. The dream in itself starts with me being in a small restaurant thingy , sitting in a booth and next to me sits the most amazing boy one could ever imagine ,like he came out directly from my head :P , but he was actually one i have seen around the web before. As one might realize by now we were on a date and everything was so amazingly vivid that i couldn't be more sure that we were actually there. It was so awesome to hug and go all lovey-dovey on him (there was actually no kissing or naughty touching) and it felt so refreshingly AMAZING!!! Also he had the most amazing white shirt one could ever had!!! .
Then things started to go all weird and i saw one guy from uni sitting with some Japanese guys and him looking quite worried. He was looking over his shoulder and being all nervous. I tell my date that i know him and i acknowledge the guy by saying hi from a distance. Then the guy goes somewhere and after some minutes the Japanese guys come to me (they were wearing suits and dark glasses *suspicious* ) and want to fight me because i apparently overheard something i shouldn't have. And all i was doing was cuddling into my date :P So i just stand up and say ok we fight then, and things get all slow-mo on me and i'm crazy fast like a ninja and get 2 people down and i wake up.
I so wish the lovey-dovey stuff had continued and i never woke up :(
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On a totally unrelated note i'm wondering how this blog became from a daily thing to a twice a week kind of thing. I do apologize to someone who might actually miss my regular postings. I don't know why it's like that now , it's not like i'm super mega busy or anything. Oops sorry was think out loud/in writing.
As for me i'm basically driving north and south in a perimeter of 100 km for the last few days just to change the scenery. That's fun , but nothing that major really to blog about , just hanging around and keeping myself busy i guess. At nights i'm either chatting with one of the two people i met on blogger , or i can be outside bumming around :P
That's it i hope you all have a great time.
See ya.
Friday, July 9, 2010
I need You
That was it, 2 weeks of feeling good with myself and my life. Two weeks was the time my mind was overwhelmed by the sudden change of coming back home and keeping busy with friends. Now i feel as shit and alone as before. Life seems unbearable, because there's no person that would share a hug,a walk in the park while holding hands, a person to just be with and to have a mutual love with. Why is this so hard to accomplish? I think of love as oxygen,something you need to survive, and now i'm slowly suffocating.Or in other words just barely having enough will to live thru such dreadful days like this.
Sorry for the downer post. With this i don't want pity or ways to stay positive or clichés that life will get better. I know it won't and life would never turn around and show me it's lovely side. Being alone for your whole life sounds like heaps of fun. I just need to vent i guess.
ps. I have a most probably bad feeling about something, but i would see how that works out and might mention it or make a post of it later on in the summer.
Sorry for the downer post. With this i don't want pity or ways to stay positive or clichés that life will get better. I know it won't and life would never turn around and show me it's lovely side. Being alone for your whole life sounds like heaps of fun. I just need to vent i guess.
ps. I have a most probably bad feeling about something, but i would see how that works out and might mention it or make a post of it later on in the summer.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Less gay?
This post is a reply to Micky's comment on my last post. On that post i mentioned that recently " i feel less gay for some reason. That's a bit strange."
First i guess i should explain one thing so things are clearer. In the header, under the name of the blog, it states that i'm Bi and i stand by that statement. One might ask why i refer to myself as gay in most posts. A big reason for this confusion is that for sometime now i'm almost exclusively attracted by guys, tho in the future i'd love to have a family and kids , so i'm keeping a mental barrier and saying i'm Bi(if that makes sense). So how would one feel less gay then? It's not like i'm starting to look after more girls, than guys it's just i don't look as much after guys. Also maybe because i'm busier i don't think as much about how i'd like a bf(as in boyfriend not best friend) and a relationship. I'd guess i made little, to no sense , but i hope at least 1 person got what i mean. (if there is such a person please be a good sport and explain it to others in a comment :P )
On the other hand how can one look at this photo and not have a mental meltdown and a cute overload!!!
I guess with this answer i just put more confusion , rather than explaining. Meh.
For no reason i'll add this artsy video of this song i like.
Moon Theory from Miami Horror on Vimeo.
Also a big Thanks for reading my blog. A special thanks to all who comment , because your comments enrich my life with all your different perspectives and points of views.Thanks :)
First i guess i should explain one thing so things are clearer. In the header, under the name of the blog, it states that i'm Bi and i stand by that statement. One might ask why i refer to myself as gay in most posts. A big reason for this confusion is that for sometime now i'm almost exclusively attracted by guys, tho in the future i'd love to have a family and kids , so i'm keeping a mental barrier and saying i'm Bi(if that makes sense). So how would one feel less gay then? It's not like i'm starting to look after more girls, than guys it's just i don't look as much after guys. Also maybe because i'm busier i don't think as much about how i'd like a bf(as in boyfriend not best friend) and a relationship. I'd guess i made little, to no sense , but i hope at least 1 person got what i mean. (if there is such a person please be a good sport and explain it to others in a comment :P )
On the other hand how can one look at this photo and not have a mental meltdown and a cute overload!!!
I guess with this answer i just put more confusion , rather than explaining. Meh.
For no reason i'll add this artsy video of this song i like.
Moon Theory from Miami Horror on Vimeo.
Also a big Thanks for reading my blog. A special thanks to all who comment , because your comments enrich my life with all your different perspectives and points of views.Thanks :)
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Guys vs Guys
I have the good opportunity to live in 2 places during the year which are in two different parts of a continent. So this gives me the chance to see guys that are so much different and of course compare. This would be my comparison :)
The people who are following my blog for some time will know that i find Danes very hot, because they are mostly blond and i have a strong attraction to blonds. This is important because hair can be a very big turn on for me. But while most of them are blond and hot , they are also similar in a way and there is no diversity. There is the odd one that is different, but it's mostly a case of more of the same. This came to mind when i came back home again and saw the immense diversity in hair,skin,style etc etc . It could be that i'm in a place with several times more people in it but still. If you ask which is best , i'd say the one i might have :P So no real winners or losers here just an observations i wanted to share with you.
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On a World Cup note, I can say that i'm so pumped that the Netherlands qualified for the semi finals. Quite pissed that Argentina lost to Germany, cuz i really liked the Argentinians play and have always had a dislike for the German football team (sorry Lunario). If Holland looses to Germany i'll throw my TV out of the window !!!
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Also being where i am now is keeping me busy most of the time so that's good and quite the improvement over before. Strange tho that i feel less gay for some
reason. That's a bit strange.
Well yeah. See you all next time.
ps. I hope i don't get hate for the World Cup personal opinion about Germany
The people who are following my blog for some time will know that i find Danes very hot, because they are mostly blond and i have a strong attraction to blonds. This is important because hair can be a very big turn on for me. But while most of them are blond and hot , they are also similar in a way and there is no diversity. There is the odd one that is different, but it's mostly a case of more of the same. This came to mind when i came back home again and saw the immense diversity in hair,skin,style etc etc . It could be that i'm in a place with several times more people in it but still. If you ask which is best , i'd say the one i might have :P So no real winners or losers here just an observations i wanted to share with you.
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On a World Cup note, I can say that i'm so pumped that the Netherlands qualified for the semi finals. Quite pissed that Argentina lost to Germany, cuz i really liked the Argentinians play and have always had a dislike for the German football team (sorry Lunario). If Holland looses to Germany i'll throw my TV out of the window !!!
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Also being where i am now is keeping me busy most of the time so that's good and quite the improvement over before. Strange tho that i feel less gay for some
reason. That's a bit strange.
Well yeah. See you all next time.
ps. I hope i don't get hate for the World Cup personal opinion about Germany
Friday, July 2, 2010
Hey there :)
Hello there blogworld :) Hope you haven't forgot about me :P
The last week or so some more interesting stuff have happened. First of all I did the almost 24 hour journey across a continent. It was quite boring and tiring, because i had to take a train,a bus and 2 planes. At least i had a laugh with one guy on the train. Ouu and yes satisfied a 2 month long craving i had for donuts.
First thing i did when i came back was to have a haircut, because I looked like Yeti on a bad hair day :P Now it's shorter :( , but definitely way better looking and dare i say even a tad cute. Tho i still have a dream to have a hair such as the one on the HOT stuff from the photo below.
Also I forgot how awesome it was to have a car for yourself and have the freedom to go wherever as long as you have money for petrol. Since the car had half a tank of petrol i have been going like crazy and had some fun aswell :) Also have been going out with friends , no major party or anything but still fun to just hang around.
Recently i heard that purple is a very stereotypical color for gays to wear. Is that true? If yes , yesterday i bought me shorts with purple and combined it with a white t-shirt with a bit of purple to match. Also bought too expensive but very awesome Nike flip flops. In other words i'm happy :)
Ok this is all for now. Hope you're all doing good. Bye!
ps I have one post that i think you'll find interesting son expect that.
The last week or so some more interesting stuff have happened. First of all I did the almost 24 hour journey across a continent. It was quite boring and tiring, because i had to take a train,a bus and 2 planes. At least i had a laugh with one guy on the train. Ouu and yes satisfied a 2 month long craving i had for donuts.
First thing i did when i came back was to have a haircut, because I looked like Yeti on a bad hair day :P Now it's shorter :( , but definitely way better looking and dare i say even a tad cute. Tho i still have a dream to have a hair such as the one on the HOT stuff from the photo below.
Also I forgot how awesome it was to have a car for yourself and have the freedom to go wherever as long as you have money for petrol. Since the car had half a tank of petrol i have been going like crazy and had some fun aswell :) Also have been going out with friends , no major party or anything but still fun to just hang around.
Recently i heard that purple is a very stereotypical color for gays to wear. Is that true? If yes , yesterday i bought me shorts with purple and combined it with a white t-shirt with a bit of purple to match. Also bought too expensive but very awesome Nike flip flops. In other words i'm happy :)
Ok this is all for now. Hope you're all doing good. Bye!
ps I have one post that i think you'll find interesting son expect that.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Done!!! Yes! Summer vacation !!
What is this sound ? Hmmm ... I think it's freedom for the next several weeks!!!! I thought this time would never come, now all i need is the end of the weekend to come and get on the plane and fly off to a better place.
Today was probably one of the hottest and humid-est days in Denmark i have experienced by far. The thermometer on the gas station showed it was 27 Degrees , this is close to the end of the world for this part of the world. Of course in such an awesome weather i had to stay in uni and wait for the exam to come and go. For this oral exam i wanted to look swanky and had jeans and a long sleeve shirt, yeaaah i was dying on my way to uni.
Some may be interested in how the exam went. First of all the group decided to meet 2 and a half hours before the examination.Big mistake it was just plain going on our nerves when doing nothing and getting a bit stressed out. Finally exam time came , we did our presentation and then went one by one to be asked questions on the 60 page project. I was third to go in and was happy with how it went. The result, hmmm well can be seen from 2 different angles. First angle- got the highest grade of the group and this means a higher grade than the girl that was PMS-ing on me one day(if you remember that incident) and also was told that i have a good knowledge etc. Second angle- i think i deserved more and am blaming it on our group being last and the examinators being cranky. So all in all i'm happy about it.
A few days from now i'm going home then i'll really be HAPPY !!! So see ya next time i have something remotely interesting happening over here. :)
ps. I'm at 1500 page views, at 2000 or 20 followers i'm thinking of doing something more interesting, any ideas what?
Today was probably one of the hottest and humid-est days in Denmark i have experienced by far. The thermometer on the gas station showed it was 27 Degrees , this is close to the end of the world for this part of the world. Of course in such an awesome weather i had to stay in uni and wait for the exam to come and go. For this oral exam i wanted to look swanky and had jeans and a long sleeve shirt, yeaaah i was dying on my way to uni.
Some may be interested in how the exam went. First of all the group decided to meet 2 and a half hours before the examination.Big mistake it was just plain going on our nerves when doing nothing and getting a bit stressed out. Finally exam time came , we did our presentation and then went one by one to be asked questions on the 60 page project. I was third to go in and was happy with how it went. The result, hmmm well can be seen from 2 different angles. First angle- got the highest grade of the group and this means a higher grade than the girl that was PMS-ing on me one day(if you remember that incident) and also was told that i have a good knowledge etc. Second angle- i think i deserved more and am blaming it on our group being last and the examinators being cranky. So all in all i'm happy about it.
A few days from now i'm going home then i'll really be HAPPY !!! So see ya next time i have something remotely interesting happening over here. :)
ps. I'm at 1500 page views, at 2000 or 20 followers i'm thinking of doing something more interesting, any ideas what?
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